Unsupportive Family and Failing Business

Just now I had my evening tea and come back to my office.

When I’m having tea I spoke to my mother to know the status of loan against the house property.

Remember…

Last month when I told my mother about my cash flow problem she said that an application for 5 lakh loan has been submitted to the bank and they promised to give the loan during first week of this month.

Based on this promise I have given a word to my house owners and staff members….

Just now my mother confirmed that it may take one more month for loan to be processed…

This news doesn’t cause any shock to me….

Because…

I have been experiencing insensitivity and indifference of my mother and brother for the last one year about this issue.

This I have been blogged extensively through my various blog posts…

My mother’s apathy put me in the following deep troubles…

  1. My company’s assessments still pending.
  2. Bank EMIs not paid during last three months.
  3. My credit history damaging.
  4. My bank loan opportunity dwindling.
  5. Pressure from staff and house owner about their dues.

Cash flow problem crushing my family:

I’m finding it very difficult even to meet our basic needs.

As she’s not my birth mother perhaps she’s not feeling my pain.

The reasons for apathy of my family members:

  1. They think that I’m wrong they are right.
  2. As they feel I’m wrong naturally they are indifferent and insensitive.

Here I want to tell you whether I’m right or wrong they will realize it in another 30 days.

None of these troubles can shake my confidence.

Break the silence and respond

I appeal to all the family members to break their silence and respond to the situation…

If you miss this opportunity you will miss this opportunity forever…

You may doubt as to how to respond…

You can respond in two ways

  1. Adjust some money that you are comfortable… Even a small amount can help me in getting over this situation.
  2. Communicating my problem to my mother and see that something is done to get over my problem…

I’m not begging

Don’t think that I’m asking for a donation…

What I’m asking is a small loan that can be payable to you along with interest in the month of May…

Silence will break the relationships

You may be thinking that you have already helped me and there is no need to do now.

I’m not denying whatever you have given me…

I have publicly acknowledged what you have done to me through my blog posts…

Here I want to confirm that I’m going to repay what you have given to me along with interest in year two or three months time….

You may not believe this…

But this is going to be the reality…

So I request you understand my current situation and respond accordingly…

The benefits of unwanted child:

Based on what my mother talked to me today she’s completely thinking negatively about me…

I cannot question what she think and believe….

What I’m doing through this blog is trying to tell my current situation and feelings.

So that family members will understand inner true spirit…

Contrary to what I believed everyone thinking negatively about me…

This negativity of family members helping me to change my focus in the following directions..

  1. I am going beyond the family members
  2. I’m thinking big
  3. Facing the challenges with even more determination
  4. I’m committing to myself to make my dream a reality soon

I can understand the ignorance of my family members:

None of the family members have any experience in entrepreneurship…

All their wrong beliefs are based on mere opinions but not based on facts…

Creating assets take time…

It requires a lot of patience and perseverance…

I therefore don’t have any negativity about my family members….

If not today tomorrow they will realize this…

Currently I’m estimating that my fertility blog will earn two plus lakhs by the end of this month…

My other blogs and product creation work will create revenue of 10 plus lakhs by the end of May month…

And after that I’m sure there will be no looking back…

As you are all doubt you will not be able to believe this…

You even don’t believe the God…

Last opportunity

You have missed everything by choosing to be silent…

Trying to uplift my venture is an act of divinity…

Either way I’ll say thank you…

If you choose to respond I’ll say thank you…

If you don’t choose to respond I’ll say double thank you…

Because

Either way you’re helping me to win this lonely battle…

I’m not calling you individually….

At this juncture I don’t know whom to call….

Even I have decided not to talk to my mother as it appears to me that she hates my phone calls…

Why should I call and trouble her at this age…

I am forgiving her considering her age…

But will the GOD forgive her I don’t know…

Once again I request each member of the family to respond to my appeal….

No blogging in this month of April…

As I’m working tirelessly to stabilize the company I don’t want to distract …

In the first week of May month I will resume my blogging once again…

The first blog in the month of May will be about how I made fertility blog a successful

I’m posting this article without correcting any mistakes…

Because time is getting late…

At about 7.30 pm I spoke to my mother..

Now the time is 8.45 pm…

This is my response to my mother’s response in the phone call

Thank you…

Ben Praveen

Childhood Emotional Wounds

If you get physical wound you go to the doctor and get the treatment till it heals…

If it is an emotional wound it is not visible therefore you can’t find it….

Children in the formative age (from birth to the age of 7) are more prone to emotional wounds…

Since we are unaware of these wounds we don’t take any corrective measures…

Whether you know this or not these emotional wounds will impact the rest of life.

If we don’t recognize this wounds they eventually end up with chronic diseases…

How to recognize these wounds?

Take my case study:

Circumstances under which I grown up I have developed the following emotional wounds…

(You can read the circumstances under which I grown up in my blog posts An unwanted child Unwanted Child Part – 2  Inner Child Released From Prison)

  • Feeling neglected…
  • Feeling lack of love…
  • Feeling disconnected…

How did I find them?

I have one bad habit

Certain situations trigger my emotions and I immediately react wildly…

This wild reaction is not planned or premeditated…

It happens automatically without my full consciousness….

I recall few of these incidents so that you can comprehend….

Symptoms of my emotional wounds

 Nandigama Gruhapravesam

Christian pasters doing their players and cutting ribbons, moving into the rooms… This ritual triggered my anger resulting in my outburst against them…

My Birth Parent Death Anniversary:

The same kind of reaction from me…

 Araku Valley… My Wife Birth Day…

The same kind of reaction from me…

Like this I can give more than 20 such experiences both in personal life and official life…

I hope you got the point.

These reactions from me are nothing but symptoms of my deeper childhood emotional wounds…

Not my problem alone

Don’t think that this is my problem alone…

Every child undergoes hurtful experiences that result in deep emotional wounds

But the reactions vary from individual to individual…

From my observation and intuitive knowing I can say that most of the people react to the situations.

To sum it up

Those who feel powerless react with silent resentment

Those who feel powerful react with wild or outrageous anger

Both these symptoms indicates emotional wounds…

The bottom-line!

Recognize your emotional wounds…

Heal those wounds…

Otherwise you end up with chronic diseases

I cover this topic extensively in my coming blog posts…

Give your comments below…

I Am a Bad Man But I Feel Good

I am a Bad Man

Because

Job

I quit the government job ignoring the responsibility of my spouse, children and family members…

I quit the government job against the wishes of spouse, family members and friends…

I quit the government job that brings a lot of money….

Asking

I’m claiming my rights as Son with my adoptive mother…

I am asking my adoptive mother money for my business…

I ask money for business from other family members….

Blogging

I am telling my childhood story to the world through my blog posts…

I’m not hiding family matters that may cause discomfort to them…

write negatively about my family members…

I am  finding fault with my birth parents and adoptive parents…

Koben

I have sold away all my assets for my business….

I’m doing business even it is incurring losses for 4 years….

I’m spending my adoptive mother’s money in my loss-making business.

I am doing a  business that no one in my family knows about it….

I always say business will be successful but don’t keep the commitments

Don’t follow

I don’t go to church and don’t follow the Christianity

I do whatever I like and don’t listen to  family members…

Everyone a say G1 or IAS are the top Jobs but I say they are the worst posts

Every family member meet in functions but I am isolated

Right or Wrong ?

Most of my family members think that I am wrong…

They are right from their perspective

Am I a Bad Man?

don’t know whether I am a bad man or a good man?

But one thing I can say…

Just I am following my heart

I am following my dreams

I am always feeling good

I am enjoying good health

To sum up

I am feeling good myself but not looking good to others..

Other way of saying this is….

The people who feel good don’t look good…

The people who look good don’t feel good…

Anyway!

I am living this beautiful life to feel good.

Remember

One thing I want you to remember…

Jesus was also considered bad man and crucified…

 

Am I a Bad Man?

Give your comments below…

Small Man Big Desires

  • Changing the mind of my Peddamma so as to accept me as her son…
  • Changing my mind so as to accept peddamma as my mother….
  • Bringing the feeling of oneness with my sisters, brother and their family members…
  • Reaching to Inapanuri, Ilapogu and Nandru family members to establish deeper connections…
  • Getting enough investments for the company…
  • Making KOBEN successful…
  • Transforming PRAVEENBEN as a global “Online Marketing Strategist”…
  • Bringing SERIES of online companies…
  • Starting charitable activities…
  • Bringing change and Inspiring Our Community as a Whole…

– Ben Praveen

What do you want to say…

Give your comments below;

Inner Child Released From Prison

Yesterday I spoke to my mother…

I have perceived a sense of indifference and impatience against me…

Perhaps she’s receiving negative feedback about my blog posts…

After I finish talking to her I sit for a while in silence….

I have followed my feelings deep down one by one…

I could sense that she’s not going to reconcile about my feelings…

think what to do?

My Desires

imagined my desires….

You can see my desires in my latest blog post “Small Man Big Desires”…

I have filtered my desires with that of GOD…

One biblical verse comes to my mind…

“He who began a good work in you will carry it” Philippians 1:6

Finally

I have decided to move towards my desires, come what may…

Inner Child Released

Following the above decision I have decided to release my inner child who was in prison within me for the last 50 years…

He was imprisoned because of my peddamma’s(Adopted mother’s) spankings, insults, shaming and timeouts….

Here I want to tell one thing…

Every child under go more or less the same pain….

Every child suppress this under the subconsciousness…

Unless one recognizes this and addresses the pain the inner child doesn’t allow you to grow fully…

This is what we popularly call as self hate,  self denial, inferiority complex so on and so forth….

So!

BEN (Inner child) has been released

Inner Child is in Action

He is in action

He will not listen to any one …

Everyone has to listen to him….

He will not beg

He knows his rights and how to get it…

He will exercise his rights…

Now he doesn’t care spankings, insults and shaming.

Even time-outs and withdrawals don’t deter him.

The only way to make peace with him is by giving an unconditional love.

He is exuberant

The reason being!

He’s backed by PRAVEEN.

Praveen could not be made to conform.

He did not accept outdated beliefs…

Entrepreneurship is not for us...

He came to this world to change this belief….

He has undertaken this Gods mission

Now onwards BEN and PRAVEEN will work together following their desires…

So!

Get ready folks…

Give your comments below;

My Cousin – Got It Wrong

On 9th March 2015 I have received message from my cousin (sister of my wife)…

Here is the message…

“We are in dilemma from three days whether we have to respond or not because we feel very small before you in knowledge….. We all knew how my sister had spent the money to help others….. We don’t want to see her family suffering. We wish to overcome from this problem very soon….. We trust that help always give happiness and pay gratitude….. But we want to give a small suggestion to both of you not to undergo emotional pain which spoils our health.” 

I tried to respond to her message sentence by sentence…

“We are in dilemma from three days whether we have to respond or not because we feel very small before you in knowledge.” 

Here is my response:

Before I give reply to this point see my quote.

Ben Praveen Quote
“We all have the heart; Heart is there to feel; Feeling is there to respond.”

This is a simple universal truth that everyone consciously or subconsciously knows this…

So!

Don’t have any dilemma…

Respond whenever you feel…

The expression of “we feel very small…..” is wrong….

It is a wrong perception….

We all hold this perception…

In fact, this wrong perception limiting our progress…

I don’t want to explain it further…

I hope you got the point…

Anyway!

The bottom-line

We are all endowed with enough intelligence and knowledge to live this life joyfully…

“We all knew how my sister had spent the money to help others.”

Here is my response:

I’m sorry to say this is also a wrong perception

Recollect the quote I have said above…

We feel and we responded….

Similarly all the family members are feeling about us and responding….

Father-in-law, mother-in-law and Brother-in-law are responding to Pinku’s needs…

Just two days back my third sister responded…

My mummy always responded…

So the bottom-line:

We are nothing special…

Every one of us feels & responds as per our consciousness and our ability…

“We don’t want to see her family suffering.” 

Here is my response:

You misunderstood here also…

The word suffering is a big word that doesn’t fit into our situation

No doubt we are having temporarily cash flow problem and we are exploring all the possibilities to get over this…

It is a temporary inconvenience…

In fact, this situation helping us to connect with all the family members through this blog and strengthening the bonding even further…

So the bottom-line:

We are feeling “all is well

“We wish to overcome from this problem very soon.” 

Here is my response:

Thank you for your wishes!

We are not only overcoming this problem but also making KOBEN a positive cash flow company in just two months time…

“We trust that help always give happiness and pay gratitude.”

” But we want to give a small suggestion to both of you not to undergo emotional pain which spoils our health.” 

Here is my response:

I hope by this time, you understood the purpose of my blogging about this issue…

It is to heal my hidden pain…

It is not spoil our health…

Every one of us hide or suppress emotional pain…

But unfortunately many people don’t recognize this and that eventually result in disease…

So!

We have to realize that suppression of emotional pain brings disease…

Finding answers to these hidden emotional pain heal and bring peace in our life…

I am in the process of finding answers to my hidden emotional pain…

But anyway!

I thank you for your heart felt response and I value it really…

I also appreciate you for  sharing your feelings without hiding…

Give your comments below

Do you agree to my response?

If not, please give your comments below…

Unwanted Child Part – 2

Those who didn’t read the original article “Unwanted Child Part – 1” read it first then proceed with this article…

The long story in short:

Here are the FACTS ( They are not my opinions)…

Hope you know the difference between the fact and the opinion….

1. Chelli sent her first child to her Akka when he was just two years….

2. This child was raised by Akka till he became independent…

3. Akka not adopted this child legally….

4. Akka recorded in his school records under father name “Inapnuri Premaiah

5. Premaiah garu said to be not agreed to put the name of Kotaiah garu as father…

(This one action caused series of humiliations in my education life and I want to cover this in another article)

6. This child doesn’t know who are his parents even today (i.e. even after 50 years)….

The core question:

Whose son am I?

Recent story

On the 30th of January 2015 I and my wife have been to Nandigma….

Before one day I told my mother to keep a separate room for me as my brother not responding to my calls…

The purpose of visit has two objectives…

1. Take some money to meet the urgent needs
2. And to discuss about the loan process that I have entrusted to her and my brother….

That day I had a long discussion with my Mummy…

I told everything that I have been telling to the world through this blog….

That night I had a peaceful sleep because I have ventilated all my emotions to her…

On 31st of January when I woke up, to my surprise my eldest sister and second sister has appeared before me….

I don’t know who called them and why they came to Nandigama…

We all sat together….

Then the discussion started….

Then I have raised the issue of my deep long pending emotional pain. i.e whose son am I?

My mother not answered the question…

Simply said that I quote

Amma told
“Andaru naaku samaname”

Since I did not get an answer to my question I have no alternative but to tell my opinion as regard to transfer of rights of the assets…

This is what I told

My Response
“Aite astini andariki samananga ivvu…. Naaku tammudike ante naaku acceptable kaadu… Mottam aasti vadiki naku iste, naaku avasaram ledu….”

This is how the discussion ended on that day….

Perpetual deep emotional pain…

My mummy already given me money to meet the immediate cash flow needs…

And yet!

On that night I did not get the sleep….

I felt a deep pain in my heart…

Most of the night I am walking to and fro in the room….

The next morning we returned to Vizag…

My brother dropped us in the railway station…

While we are traveling to Vizag also, I felt no peace….

What I have discovered?

While my wife sleeping I have closed my eyes and listened to my heart…

It was beating heavily…

Gradually I have come a realization why my heart is still in stressful mode…

Did you know why my heart was heavier?

The answer is very simple…

The child who is crying inside me for 50 years didn’t get answer even today…

The unanswered question that traumatizing this child is…

Whose son am I?

After returned to Vizag as usual I turned to my work….

As usual I have imprisoned that child once again….

I have forgotten him as I started focusing on my work…

Why I am showing this child to this world now?

This child was locked in the prison within me for 50 years.

He was never given bail to come out.

Now I have crossed 50 years…

I am intuitively feeling that if I keep this child imprisoned any further, it is going to affect my health….

It is also going to affect mummy and other family members…

A simple soul doesn’t understand this…

Only the people who are having highest consciousness can understand this…

Whether you believe or not this is the reality….

And however, I will give the proof

Emotional causes that can trigger cancer
• Loss of spouse (divorce or death) or loss of child (separation or death) can trigger breast cancer • Fear of death (including the shock of being diagnosed with cancer) can trigger lung cancer • Loss of territory (wife leaves or man loses his job) can trigger prostate cancer • Failure to let go of some past issue can trigger colon cancer • Failure to accept the situation can trigger stomach cancer …..

Click  To Read More…..

Link between Childhood Trauma and Chronic Disease
What Every Practitioner Needs To Know About the Link between Childhood Trauma and Chronic Disease A Startling Link between Childhood Trauma and a 20 Year Shorter Life Expectancy Why the Coping Mechanisms of Trauma Survivors Often Increase the Chances of Developing Chronic Disease Can Childhood Trauma Trigger Cancer? The Relationship between Trauma and Heart Disease The Link between Childhood Trauma and Inflammation

Click  To Read More…..

If you search in internet you find 100s of 1000s of such reports…

Example of our own close relative?

Take the example of Prabhu Kumar

( He was a close relative of my father – in – law…)

Now I was told that he was in hospital….

What I say may shock you….

None of the treatments can solve his problem…

No religious preachings can solve his condition…

The root cause of his problem is unresolved emotional conflicts…

The only way to get back his health is resolving the inner emotional conflicts…

(There are a whole lot of psychological techniques to deal with this problem. I want to cover them in my future articles)

Unwanted child blogging continues?

Many people thinking that I may not continue this for long…

But that is not correct…

Then the question comes…

How long does it continues?

The answer is obvious…

Until my mother accepts me as her son ….

A simple word doesn’t sufficient for me…

I need a complete change of her mind…

She has to understand my pain from the bottom of her heart ..

Benefits of this blog

Benefits to me:

It ends the emotional pain of the inner child who was imprisoned within me…

The possible chronic diseases can be prevented…

I can live enjoying the love of my mother…

I can make this entrepreneurial journey successful….

Many other companies may come up….

Benefits to my mother:

Realization of me as her son solves all her inner emotional issues also….

She can also enjoy the love of his son…

Her longevity increases…

She can enjoy watching my progress as an entrepreneur…

She can feel proud of my achievements…

What else brings more happiness to the parents than their child living the big dream?

Benefits to the sisters:

If you see the whole picture you understand how it benefits them…

First  they have to acknowledge, realize and feel the following facts

1. We are all born from the same womb

2. We are all carrying the same genes

3. We are all carrying the same flesh and bones

4. We are carrying the same blood

4. We are all carrying the same biology….

5. In nutshell, we are all one

So, the obvious conclusion is if I get benefited they also get benefited….

I have demonstrated this with the deeds not with my words

I don’t need to remember what I have done….

Benefits to the other family members and society as a whole:

Since the issue under discussion is relating to emotions, everyone can connect with these issues…

I foresee the following benefits…

1. Parents can understand how children effect with their actions….

2. Parents can express even more love to their children…

2. Parents can feel even more responsible towards their children…

3. Children can come even more close to their parents…

4. Children also learn how to face the life challenges watching a successful man…

Note: I have not used the word ‘successful’ to boast about myself…Achieving Group1 success is a dream to many people even today. Watching entrepreneurial journey changes their mind  for good)

The bottom-line…

The unwanted child serial continues till the climax…

So don’t miss any episode…

Your comments are approved instantly without any moderation…

You can see your comments under recent comments on the side bar of this blog…

Even for negative comments also, I will give reply….

In fact!

Negative comments get more detailed reply as I need to clarify them…

So! Give your comments below NOW….

If you don’t read my blog post “Unwanted Child Part – 1” Go here….

My Heart is my GPS

Today when I woke up I’m not feeling easy…

I’m feeling stress…

Why am I feeling stress?

Anyway!

I have finished my breakfast and come back to the office….

The stress seems to be not coming down….

I switched on air conditioner but not opened the computer….

Sitting in the chair I started observing my heart….

My heart beat appears to be more than the normal….

I am taking deep breathe slowly and thinking what could be the cause….

Then I have realized that the owner of house yesterday talked to me and requested to pay the rent as early as possible….

My staff also requesting for salary for couple of days….

So!

Perhaps these factors affecting my body and that are being reflected in my heart beat….

While continuously taking the breath I’m trying to find answer to this problem….

Intuitive Idea

Suddenly an intuitive idea flashed in my mind….

Idea is very simple…

Intuitive Idea
Instead of confining my blog  reach to only closely related family members, it is better to reach the bigger community…

Heart is my GPS

I have already told you that my heart is my GPS….

I listen to my heart….

This has been my practice for the last couple of years…

In fact!

I stopped listening to others….

I’m only relying on my heart….

I strongly believe that heart is the connecting link between us and the GOD….

So obviously!

Listening to the heart is listening to the GOD…

This is what I felt strongly….

Alright now I’m coming to the point…

The decision taken:

I have decided to spread my blog posts to all inapanuri , ilapogu, and nandru family members…

Then immediately I have sent messages to all my sisters asking them to send the mobile numbers of these family members….

I am at peace

After sending the message I sit silently and to my surprise my heart beat comes to normalcy….

Now I’m feeling complete peace….

My thoughts turning to positive side….

Big Picture

The big picture is getting clearer and clearer to me….

I could see what is going to happen in coming days….

As I’m thinking my body feeling rejuvenated…..

I could feel a lot of energy in my body….

At last the image of my brother comes to my mind….

The Spiritual Truth

And in the end a spiritual truth revealed to my mind….

If I reveal the spiritual truth today you may not in a position to come to terms with this reality….

I will reveal the spiritual truth at the appropriate time through this blog….

For doubting people…

This has been my practice for the last 2 years…

All my article ideas comes to my mind in this way…

If  I am writing a book…

I put the head phone…

Start talking…

( I use speech recognition software… It transcribes my voice into the content)

After I finish the work…

If re-read the draft some times I surprise ….

Is it me who has written this…

My mind doesn’t believe this…

But that is the reality…

How this is happening?

I leave it for your discretion…

To summarize

I end this post with my gratitude…

I thank God for this message…

I thank my brother for carrying this message to me…

Comment below

Adults are not giving any comments…

It may take some more time for them to respond…

Children! why don’t you respond?

I love to see your comments…

Don’t fear…

Will you comment now?

Success Is a Journey through 4 Steps

Yesterday my eldest sister spoke to me…

She tried to guide me as to how to get over my present cash flow problem…

I take this occasion to thank my loving sister.

During conversation I have perceived that there is a communication gap between me and my sisters on couple of points….

In this blog post I cover one such misunderstanding …

One thing that only few successful people truly understands…

This is extremely important topic that everyone needs to understand…

She said and I quote…

“Neevu Group-1 officer ayyavu kabatti help chesavu….”

What she mean to say!

I have helped  my family members as I am in a position and capacity to help…

In other words…

What she’s saying is that I don’t help them if I don’t became Group1 officer….

This is absolutely untrue….

Quite simply!

It is a lie

Four Step Success Secret:

First I construct FOUR sentences in a logical way…

If you can understand these four sentences it can solve almost every problem that human society facing today

So pay very close attention to the following 4 sentences;

Step-1: My parents cannot get the marriage of my sisters… (Problem)

Step-2: Unless I achieve a top position I can’t  help them… (Desire)

Step-3: I have worked very hard and achieved the top position… (Action)

Step-4: As I achieved the top opposition I get the marriage of my sisters…. (Desire fulfilled)

Going by the above four sentences my sister missed step 1 and step 2

She is only telling step 3 and step 4

Remember!

Unless you read the four steps linking one step to another step, you can’t understand the whole truth….

To summarize!

Half truth is always a lie…

Take a look at the following proverbs once again

Famous Proverb
A half-truth is a whole lie -Yiddish Proverb
“‘Half a truth is often a great lie.’ – Benjamin Franklin

 

In fact!

This is the essence of my blog post “Group-1 Success Secret”

Read it once again, you can understand it…

If you can understand this truth, it changes your life altogether…

I think everyone understands this blog post in its true spirit…

Nevertheless for the sake of giving even more clarity I’ll give some more examples…

First I want to give my example:

Step -1

I can’t live honestly in commercial taxes Department…

I can’t fulfill my desires of living big and influencing the society honestly…

So this was my problem…

Step – 2

I want to be an entrepreneur…

My community always lives in fear…

I want to play big so that I can be a role model to my community…

So this was my desire….

Step-3

I quit government service….

I have started Koben marketing solutions pvt ltd

My company becomes successful

Note: I have been working for this company for the last 3 years and it is going to be cash rich company in a couple of months…

Step- 4

I am living honestly…

I’m living big…

I’m influencing the people through my blogs…

And that is how I getting over the problem and fulfilling my desires….

Now I will give another example…

(This is my dream about my brother )

Anyone can step into his footsteps and go by these four steps…

Step-1

I have two girl childs…

Getting them educated and married is a difficult thing for me with my present business….

This is the problem…

Step-2

I want expand my business or shift to another business to get over this problem….

This is the desire…

Step-3

I am working very hard to expand my business…

This is the action part of four step process…

Step-4

Business was very successful and I’m able to get my children a good education and also fulfill their marriage successfully…

That is how desire will be fulfilled….

Like this I can give hundreds of examples ….

In fact!

Every successful journey begins like this…

I hope you got the point…

Life is a Journey without a destination….

It is a simple process of a journey from the pain to the pleasure….

After all!

Life is a process of evolving from pain to pleasure….

This doesn’t mean we remain in the state of pleasure eternally….

Life is a journey without any destination…( Note: I will cover this more in my forth coming blog posts )

So we move from pain to pleasure >>> pain to pleasure >>>

Journey goes on like this…

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And finally don’t forget read my post “Group – 1 Success Secret”

It was a real life example of my pain to pleasure journey that almost take away 10 years of life…

 

My Group-1 Success Secret

In this blog post I want to share the real secret of my G1 success.

When I was studying everybody thinks that I was an average student.

My eldest  sister was considered a brilliant student.

This is the perception of people around us.

Now I’m asking myself a question?

Am I an average student?

My heart is telling that I’m not even an average student…

It is telling that I am a poor student…

Till the age of 45 years I was used to guide by my mind….

But for the last five years I used to guide by my heart…

My heart is my GPS system….

So I can’t question it…

I’m confessing to the world that I was a poor student….

Having said that!

How can I explain that I topped Group1 services?

If you want to know the answer to this question, you have to read my small story…

Here is the story…

I don’t remember the year exactly…

One-day…

Myself and my biological sisters gone to a village called Vellanki…

As usual we were  playing there…

Suddenly a message came from an angel  through my mamaiah…

(At that time I thought that it came from a bad man)

Guess what?

Turning point – 1 in my life

My Uncle (Mamaiah) jokingly or sarcastically uttered the following phrase…

This was the exact phrase …
Era! Mee nanna mee chellilla pellillu ela chestadu ra? Mee nanna daggara telephone wires untayi gada… vatini ammi chestada?

Here is the translation of the above words…

How your daddy will get the marriage of your sisters? Does he sell the telephone wires to do their marriage?

The moment I heard these words I felt ashamed…

My heart becomes heavier…

In my imagination I have scolded him with filthy language….

Have you related with this?

Humiliation affects the children…

Maybe it is relating to….

Their physical looks….

Their skin texture…

Their exam marks…

Their height…

Their weight…

If I keep on expanding the list it goes on like this…

Okay!

I hope you got the point…

Each one of us whether a child or an adult experience such incidents…

Now I am coming back to my story…

After listening to those words we have rested on the cots…

I am watching my sisters….

My mind playing the painful thoughts …

It is difficult for me to translate my thoughts into words…

The point is clear…

Getting the marriage of my sisters is difficult…

That is the essence of my uncle’s sarcasm…

This fear or pain made a strong imprint in my heart…

Days, months and years passing…

This pain consciously or subconsciously growing in my emotional body…

At that time I don’t have a zandubalm for this pain…

Perhaps the same pain and helplessness might have caused “Cancer” to my biological mother.

But anyway!

I have finished my B.Sc degree and joined M.Sc in Nanded…

Turning point – 2 in my life

During holidays I came to Nandigama…

One day!

I went to a medical shop…

The shop owner told me…

“It is great… Your lecturers became G1 officers…. Now their life has changed”

 

Quite simply!

I could sense that G1 is a top job …

Then I have proceeded to the KVR College…

Every lecturer and student appreciating  these two successful lecturers…

During the next two or three days wherever I go, the same discussion…

Then I have realized the magnanimity of this job.

(This was my perception at the time. Today I have completely different opinion about this job. This also I cover in my fourth coming blog posts)

My holidays were over and therefore went back to Nanded.

But the feeling I have experienced  continuously pop up in my mind…

My heart was saying that why don’t you try G1 job…

Then I have decided to get G1 services… 

The long journey Big set backs

From that point of time on words till I actually get into G1 service (1987 to 1997) it has been a long journey…

Number of up and downs…

Number of setbacks…

Number of humiliations…

Added to that…

The skepticism of my family members has been puncturing my morale.

Whenever the result of the examination comes it was a nightmare for me…

Sitting isolated somewhere I used to cry hours together…

I fear to go to my house as it is a place of hopelessness and negativity…

Nobody talks to me and consoles my pain…

My mind start questioning that do I deserve G1 services?

Am I worthy of getting G1 services?

Here let me share one incident that is connected to this matter…

My adoptive mother once said….

Why don’t you  go for something else?

My biological father once said…

Perhaps G1 is difficult you may not get it…

These observations  trigger my mind and I  got angry on them like this…

My reaction
“Chtanite encourage cheyandi leka pote noru musukoni kurchondi… Here is the translation… If you’re capable encourage me otherwise keep your mouth shut…

The same Journey again with a big difference

Shall I tell even more interesting thing…

Even today my family members doubting about my business…

They are utterly hopeless…

Pay very close attention here…

During that time I was also doubtful.  Today I am 100% sure of success….

During that time I was affected by the negativity . Today nothing can affect me…

During that time I feel isolated. Today I feel connected to the divine…

That is only the difference…

What made me to stick to my guns (1987 to 1997)?

First I have achieved the job of VDO

Then I have achieved the job of Senior Assistant

Then I got married…

Then I got children…

Circumstances were forcing me to stop my endeavors…

But the words of my Uncle kept remembering my duty….

Guess what?

The marriage of my sisters…

The fear of their future…

In other wards…

Love towards my sisters is the secret of my success…

Shall I give my success formula?

Increase the Love – Decrease the Doubt = success

I want all the children to remember this formula…

It doesn’t matter…

Whether you are poor or brilliant in education….

Whether you go for coaching or self-studying…

Whether you get discouragement or encouragement…

Let me elaborate the formula here;

There is no such thing as increasing the love or decreasing the doubt….

It is only the question of feeling the love

The feeling of  love eliminates the fear from your mind gradually…

It is like!

Light eliminating the darkness….

Conversely!

You can’t eliminate the darkness without lighting

So!

This is the secret of my G1 success…

Quitting Group-1 is the God’s call

I have quit G1 services to do something bigger…

I want to knock down the limitations of the mediocre life…

I want to explore my life fully…

I want to impact the life of people…

I was a God sent son to my adoptive mother…

Supporting my dreams is serving the Gods wish…

I have quit G1 job on Gods call…

I hope she wake up to this reality…

Let every family member share this to my adoptive mother…

By doing so you are also fulfilling the Gods wish…

Open your heart…

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